I think I wait for people to hurt me, and when they do, I feel a certain smugness at being right, right after, I just feel pain.
It could be wanting to be loved so desperately that it makes hands shake, it could be the pain of staying- most people don't think the idea of leaving is beautiful, and they spend their whole life trying to stay, hurting themselves in the process, sometimes, it comes from within. Not being able to feel safe in your own head brings pain as well, but getting hurt is quite easy, dealing with the pain that comes with it is quite the opposite.
Everyone has their own different way of dealing with pain, some simply accept it, and let it consume them, some fight and seek for revenge, some withdraw from society and nurse their wounds in private, some change locations- the list goes on and on. Sometimes, we wish to sleep so we can forget, other times, we wish to forget so we can sleep.
When all is said and done, I think everyone just resorts to one form of escapism or the other- movies, books, music, art, day dreams… I think we're all homesick for a place we're not sure even exists, one where our hearts are full, our bodies are loved, and our souls are understood.
So which one is it for you? How do you deal with pain? Let me know in the comments section.🌷
I try to sleep and wake up like nothing happened and try to keep myself busy that day so I won’t get a flashback.